No Weigh In

I'm not going to have internet very soon since I am trying to move out of my parents house. I also have a weight update. I think I have an eating disorder. I have all the symptoms of binge eating which is a serious eating disorder. I mean all of the eating disorders are serious thats not what I was saying just in case one of my readers get offended. I want to get treatment for my disorder I just don't know where to start. I wonder if it woud even help? Should I waste my time? Do I really have this eating disorder or is it something else? My questions are endless and I'm not going to bore you with all of them.

2nd Week Weigh In

I forgot to mention with the last post that I took that video last Thursday. It has been exactly 1 week since my last weigh in so its time to weigh in!

Yep it says 242 lbs! I lost 8 lbs! Well I guess mostly because I was sick most of the week and it sucked. I just haven't felt like eating. Today I felt guilty for eating a doughnut but I have barely ate since Friday.

1st Weigh In

This is my starting weight even though according to the scale I have lost 10 lbs since this since I have been sick but I have no idea.

I've Been BAD!

As you can tell from my shadow I haven't stuck to my diet at all since I went to being depressed. I never knew getting married would make me so depressed seeing all of my friends out at college hanging out doing what they want to do and I'm stuck at home catering to my future husband. I seem to never have time for myself including taking care of myself. I just want to be healthy and happy but that wont happen as long as I'm trying to make him happy. Hes already skinny and eats whatever he wants and he expects me to eat what he does and still lose weight, that would never happen! We did go walking at the park yesterday after bribing to allow him to use my cell phone. I need someone to help me with this weight loss not keep me from doing it. He always tells me that I need to lose weight and that he will help me but when it comes down to it he does nothing but bash me for my weight.